I'll go ahead and say that I haven't exactly talked to him about it. He spanks me, but it's always over in less that ten-twenty seconds, and he always makes it soooo obviously sexual. And hey, that's cool, but sometimes(most of the time), I really want him to wallop me.
I guess it's better than nothing though. I don't know, reading stories about the domestic discipline lifestyle really interests me. I want us to have that sort of lifestyle. I talked to him the other day about being more in charge, and dominant, but he hasn't really changed all that much. I don't think he "gets" what I mean.I'm just afraid that if I say anything about it, he'll think that I just want a pleasurable punishment whenever I've done something really bad. And heck, spankings fricken awesome, and it turns me on, but that isn't my point.
Are we doomed? I feel so frustrated sometimes, and confused. I just don't know what to do. Maybe I've put to much emphasis on spanking, and it's to late to change everything.
I just want a sort of lifestyle where he's stern when I've done something, and then....spanks me.
Eh. I'm just venting I guess. Advice? Suggestions?